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another crazy day in the life of our unsuspecting character, Kiwi Vergara..

Dear on-line journal,

Phew! Its been a super lung time since I last posted here.. These past few weeks have been really crazy.. as in.. I missed you guys so much.. ( whoever reads this pointless crap..) Let me start off by relating to you a story of a person I very much in touch with.. His story is one of many typical stories.. boy meets girl.. spend time with each other then.. kabloey! A kalaidoscope full of colors.. I mean he's not the typical guy to be serious when it comes to uhhmm.. well.. ladies.. This guy lives for the next day knowing that its laced full of challenges and hardships. I know pretty much what happens in his life but now I find myself dumbfounded when it comes to the actions he is showing. Lots of times he has loved and lost later recuperating to love and lost again. Truly a sad story but now he comes to this crossroad. Oh no..! committment problems. I guess not.. Oh come on.. You know youre better than this. Are you ready to what I'm gonna say? You, better prepare for this..

His story starts with an"Oh my God!", saying that he wants a long term committment but now in the face of a possible one you turn into a stinker.. This was a guy who knew very well his capabilities as a person but his story took an unoblivous turn to mysterious waters. What the hell are you afraid of? I mean fine, given the fact that the past few girls were stink bombs but that doesnt mean youre giving up that easy without fighting hard.. Lets admit it.. you go for the moment.. the lousy lay that ends eventually the morning after. You like playing the game of cat and mouse but in this game you always play dog. Haaay! Well for once in your life play fair. Yes I know that you know how the game works but lets go back to your roots. Old fashioned high school style courtship wherein every intention was good and pure. No vendettas nor hidden agendas please. Lets slow down a bit.. Don't you think that youre getting way over your head? Do you honestly think that you can live life that way forever!? I see your depression.. I see youre solitary existence but try again what its like to be that boy thats seen his angel for the first time in his life and knew then and there that he's gonna go for the thing that matters the most.. You used to be that person but in your life where decisions were made and a matter of compromises were the only answers you devolved into this pathetic creature of a man.. boy, don't cower and sulk in the shadow of what you are now..

Life is too short boy.. I'm sure that after a few sessions with yourself and definetly conquering your own demons youll be fine. The answers should be clear to interpret because now I see in you that youre living for the moment where both ends meet.